Have you ever prepped yourself for meeting someone famous? Someome you really admire or look up to? If someone told me I was going to meet Queen Latifah or Adele, or Kevin James or Beyoncé or my favorite hip hop artist J-Thrill, or oh! Jamie Tworsowski I would FLIP OUT. I would be jumping up and down all day, everyday. I would plan out speaking points, I would bring them coffee, I would plan my handshake or hug depending on if I think they would go for that sort of thing. When first met my very favorite minister, I was terrified. I'm even embarrassed as I write this now. Simply because him and his family have become friends of mine. I was was so excited and so nervous. He was my very favorite preacher, he speaks the truth with grace and excellece, taking lofty theories and breaking them down for his congregations. But has a way to speak with a deep and sincere love for everyone. I cannot really explain now why I was so nervous. Nonetheless. I planned every word I was going to say. Exactly how I was going to shake his hand. Confident. Strong. When I met him and his beautiful wife, our conversation was less than special. I ended up tripping my way through my name and major. I think I told them I was related to John Wilkes Booth and I was a Scorpio. ¿¿¿¿ Oh and do not even get me started on the handshake. I completely tripped on my left foot and almost knocked them over like bowling pins. Ugh, classic Mol. That excitement and worry and planning all went in to meeting just this normal Jesus loving homie. And that's sort of how I feel saying goodbye to Momma. Only this time I have no idea what I want to say. You all may not believe me but I'm at a loss for words. Ha! It's not that you all are not independently important to me but I can almost guarantee the words I say or type to you are not as important to me, in this moment, as the words I say to her before she leaves us. I'm giddy, I'm nervous, the feelings of excitement are more of a somber anxiety, instead of a firm handshake maybe just a light squeeze to her beautiful hands, I'm not jumping up and down because that's not super appropriate at the Hospice House. I'm honored that I have been given the last seven months to talk to Momma and say everything several times over. I am positive she is leaving this earth knowing she is deeply loved and cared for. I am positive she is leaving this earth knowing she is going to a place where she is already deeply loved, a place she will receive the best possible care. Ha! I can only imagine that Momma is feeling the same way as us. She is nervous and excited and giddy and so happy and so full of joy. She is probably practicing what she is going to say, her curtsy, her wave, her firm and confident handshake. Because Momma GETS TO MEET THE CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE SO SOON. Momma gets to meet our Savior. Momma gets to meet the Spirit. HA!!! She will probably make God laugh. He will tell her that she was a good and faithful servant. And He will hold her and wipe away all of her tears. And that sounds like the best meet cute in the whole entire world!!!!!!!!!!
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